Hi all! I’ve been dying to check in on the blog. I’ve got a lot of details to share and plenty of new inspiration and topics to write about. I am currently enjoying this precious hazy newborn time too much, and will post more soon. Keep checking back.
In the meantime, here is the post I was planning to put up last Wednesday, 11-07-07 - but I was a little preoccupied. All of the wondering, speculations, and questions I did in this were already happily answered.
Week 39: So it’s not just the “Who’s in there with your sweet little hiccups, your penchant for stomping on my bladder and your insatiable craving for gallons upon gallons of skim milk - that’s making me anxious..” Now it’s the “WHEN are you coming out, baby?!
All signs point to
EXIT. Soon. But when? Every night when I shut my office door, I wonder, “Am I coming back tomorrow? Is this the last time I’m here for a few months?” Which makes me hastily turn the key back in the door, quickly straighten my desk, water the plant, and write last minute post-it notes labeling this or that or explaining what is left undone in my in-box. All ducks must be in rows. Loose ends tidied up. Nesting.
There is no official baby pool but there is plenty of anticipation and speculation, a lot of hearing the daily “You’re still here?”
One colleague is dying for my water to break in the office. “So exciting! And it would make for good department lore for years to come.” Ummm - I’m not so certain I’d like that situation to be a part of that lore.
Another co-worker, Judy, says ”I’m predicting your baby will come when all the leaves drop off the gingko tree near the Strib parking lot across the street.” We have a beautiful old gingko out there just bursting full of yellow fanned leaves that all spontaneously drop on one random day in late fall. I love the idea that, that would be the day I have the baby. Gingko trees are very sentimental and full of significance to me. So that would be an incredibly meaningful if it were to happen.
I also like the idea of 11/11/07 for the baby. It rolls off the tongue, it’s lyrical, it’s Veterans Day - and elevens seem to follow me around and pop up wherever I go. My lucky number. It must be a sign of good things. Sunday works.
The fact is - through all the speculation, hopes and guesses. I just don’t know when this baby will come. The only thing that is certain is that it will be born in November. Baby has his/her own agenda no matter how many things are left undone, whatever day it is and whatever the circumstances are around it. Whenever baby enters this world will be a very special day.
11-07-07 wasn’t 11-11-07, but lyrical nonetheless. Our world became more wonderful when Vivian became a part of it. I called Judy to share the good news. She looked out the window. Sure enough - the gingko had dropped it’s leaves.